Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Orion Lowell Smith Beatty

Okay sorry for taking so long but when do I ever post on here anyway? (that will all change so soon).

The rumors are true, we have another. Came late night 13th March 2007. Fought the good fight but nature prevailed and he came out in a tub of semi-warm water, purple and wet with his eyes clenched shut and his nose a little bruised. Twentyone inches long and eight pounds solid. A good baby. Here are some starter pictures; I'll post more later, especially maybe some closer-up views.







As soon as humanly possible

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photo of our new addition to the fam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O'rion!
Orion?
How do you spell?

What is his middle name? Pic and all stats, please!

We split! We split!



Tonight was our performance of The Tempest in front of a public audience. We all donned our white costumes (mine of white tux slacks, white shoes, white socks, a white button-up shirt [sleeves rolled up] a white tie, white suspenders and a daper hairdo) and in the cool fog of a warm Santa Cruz evening we told the short story of Shakespeare's Tempest t0 100-someodd Santa Cruzien residents. Twas ah-magical. I loved it.

That said, all day long since the bright easterly sun shined directly into my eyes at 8 o'clock this morning, I have been thinking about what job I need to get for the next 3 months. I know that every monday/wednesday/friday morning till 1 o'clock I will be performing endless Tempests to high school and junior high kids in the tri-counties surrounding Santa Cruz, but other than that I absolutely need some other kind of work. I could go back to Pizza Delivery temporarily, but I'm worried that might leave me horribly unsatisfied. I could try to get a server job, but alas there are slim-to-none to be had. I could land a job at Costco or Nob Hill (Raley's) or some other corporate grocery store, but for some reason I shun such ideas. I could work locally at a coffee/bakery shop like Daniel does, make minimal tips but have easy fun work and barely pay rent. What should I do!? Any suggestions from the family? I don't really have anything else to do now but get a job, so this is a pretty big decision.

ALSO: I am getting a laptop by the end of the summer to replace my beautiful education-machine that was this little faithful Dell.

So there's my update - Living on the brink again. The ship is wrecking, the island is landing, the storm is finishing, and I'm standing trying to make something of all of it, again. Dagnabbit.

I told my friend while standing in the vom of Mainstage this morning, "I figured out that it's much less where you are and what you're doing that really makes you happy, than who's there doing it with you."

Oh, and Joey: you don't know the heaven you've brought into our home by transporting that SuperNintendo here when you came. Thank, you, thank, you, Nyet nyet nyet.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

rhapsody


the days and evenings are so balmy it feels like june. i am in love with the spring time.

right now every day is so busy i have to have long to-do lists to keep track of everything i need to accomplish. today's included: bank, dmv, yard sale flyers, clean bathrooms, hang laundry, use coinstar to cash out all my change, post new stuff on ebay, clean out car, get stuff ready for yard sale. it has been a full day and the sun is shining and i've been running around in my big rainbow colored sundress that people stare at, and i have my big diet coke cup from del taco and it keeps my engine running. the night is so warm right now that all my windows are open.

daffodils are in bloom all over my yard. everything is green and yellow and white blossoms drifting down from the trees. march is a magical month. everything is coming up, and every day is beautiful.
if only i could keep from those over-stressed moments. last night we went to the movies to see "history boys." mom, joey and i met at the theater. darin was working and i had to bring him a raley's sandwich. i was so frazzled when i got there, my blood was still racing from all the things i'd had to do, the lists i was making, the thoughts racing in my head.

after today (a day off work) i feel better. i have a completely legal and registered 1988 ford econoline van which is almost trip-ready. i have lots of great albums downloaded to my ipod. i have $320 in cash that came from all the coins i've saved for the past eight or nine months. little things like this ease my mind. my bathrooms are relatively clean and my car is tidy. nothing is perfect, but as mom says, "messy is the new neat." so i'm trying to just relax and enjoy being alive in the springtime.

by the way, our weekend in santa cruz and modesto was amazing. i look at the beach pictures we took and i just want to cry with joy. being at the ocean is the best feeling on earth. the sand was warm and everything was gritty and golden and so alive around us. the sand crab in my hand felt like a connection to every bit of life that has ever existed on this marvelous earth. seeing 95-year old grandma georgie the next day and all that family, and knowing that we have relatives down in honduras who have a huge "garcia" family reunion in august just adds to this connectivity.

my goal every day, in every way, is to be more connected to this earth and the human experience, which is an animal experience, which is also a flower and cloud and drum and echo and mountain and stone, brother and sister experience. i am so grateful eternally to be a part of this.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Addie and Art


Forget to include Addie and Art at the party for Grandma. Addie loves those types of family get togethers. They came to Modesto from Grass Valley. It was terrific to have them there. Above is a picture of Grandma after everyone sang happy birthday to her.

Dad

Fun Weekend in SC


Hey, I wanted to show a couple of pictures I took this weekend in Santa Cruz. The bottom one turned out really cute even though we don't see Stan and Joey isn't posing(that's Darin kissing Heather, duh). Mikie took his mom's hand to lead her from the stairs down to the beach sand in the upper picture. She wasn't going to come down because she didn't have the proper footware. Well, she softened and walked down to the beach where we all watched Heather capture a sand crab. I can still see her (and Addie) doing that many years ago everytime we went to the beach. Anyway, we had a swell time. While down there I called Grandma Georgie and told her where we all were. She wished she could be there so much. She reminded me again how my Dad, Mom and Steve and I used to go to Santa Cruz many summers for a weekend and stay with grandpa & grandma Baker. Grandpa Baker rented a little cottage (really just a little one room structure that was connected to a bunch of others, kind of like a motel, just a block away from the beach/boardwalk) for a month. He loved it there. Then Grandma Baker would come over for part of the time. Mom told me dad really didn't like the beach that much. He didn't like the sand!! Actually talking to her was kind of sad because I figured that unless some special effort was made (which I suppose is a possibility), she probably wouldn't be able to be there again during her life on this earth.
So we had fun seeing the production at the Barn. Interesting, a little baffling at times (is baffling a good word?), but fun. Mikie starred in all the segments (3 or 4 in all) They all did a great acting job.
We, Heather, Darin, Joey and myself went from there Sat. morn to Modesto to take part in the get together for Grandma Georgies party. It was very nice and great food. Heather made a yummy corny/bean salad. Thanks to Darin and Joey for doing some of the driving.
ya know, I only can think of one thing on my exciting to do list at this time and that is:
Getting Heto to say "Ricky/Bobby" We're working on it.
(really there are many others which I will list sometime maybe)
So there you have it. Love from Dad

more meat than meets the eye's meat


Hey.
It's a beautiful night. I'd be better off writing in my journal, but I'm already here and my hands aren't in the mood to scratch a pen on paper, really.

I finished the last night of my play tonight. The Bald Soprano/ David Ives. It's funny, about a year ago I was sitting in a class waiting for 60B to start, reading that Twicknam Vicorage play with Jimmy and Kai out of Jimmy's David Ives book of plays... and we all said, "hey! How cool would it be to put on a 'Night of David Ives' in the barn!" Now, a full year hence, that exact thing has come to a finish. Suprisingly, I learned the most from doing The Bald Soprano, a play I never even signed up to do in the first place but was kinda finnagled into doing if I wanted to be in Kai's David Ives play.

Anyhow, something really was triggered tonight. Something clicked. Some snap. Something.

See, I can't turn around. It hurts a little, too - and what a wonderful pain it is.
The family came a couple days ago, and that stupid heart string that gets tugged got tugged. But a day later I'm 10 times more ready to explore away again, into something new again and reconfigure my meanings of life again because of it, because I can. I love to have the family visit, and I hate it. Because it reminds me how close I really am from my home, and how fragile a thing it is to displace yourself so closely away from home. Because the "going back" becomes so easy, so convenient, and altogether ordinary. I cannot can NOT get to even have it anymore. I need to be forced fully, weened renundantly away, completely and utterly snapped off from the lifeline. I NEED to survive, like me and only only me. And survival has become something far too easy to accomplish. Yes, indeed I certainly have moved from one part of life to another. But now I need to continue further still. I need to lengthen that gap between, and fill the void with a new desire to proceed. I need to survive harder. Can I do it? Of course I believe I can. I have realized how possible it could be if I just suck up the guts and do my beautiful work; no gap can ever be wide enough nor any survival satiable enough for my ravenous lust for wishful fulfillment. Give it to me now, serve it up sweet and salty, harness my back to the lift and sling me to shatter the sky with my penetrating harrrahs!!
Then cut me loose, fall I shall, and fly I promise I will I will.
And fly I promise I will.

So that's where it stands tonight. This starry-eyed night sky over Santa Cruz, black and white waves breathing into our dark air with possibility and a sparkle of electric current glinting between the seconds. I cannot wait to see what's next. Jimmy knows, Kai knows, Ellie knows, Matt knows, Max knows, Patrick knows, Susannah knows, Jill knows, Daniel knows, Lee knows, Craig knows, Nikki knows, Alex certainly knows, like Justin knows and Allegra knows, Alanna knows, Joey knows, I know, we all know. Where it stands tonight, suspended tonight, asleep for just a moment tonight, we all know.
And fly we shall!

Saturday, March 10, 2007

It's that time again



Oh boy I'm really in for some trouble guys.

So, today I had a partial day off - which means sleep in and do whatever I fancy until about 5pm. That said, I spent every waking minute cleaning my house furiously, throwing away as much junk in my room as possible and trying to minimalize my packrat existence. It worked pretty swell too, I do believe.

BUT -

It then occurred to me as I sat down restlessly at my computer to peruse the worthless internet that in two weeks from now I have really got to REALLY get something big to do. And I mean big. Because at this point I have spent the past 8+ months working 12-15 hour days between rehearsals, jobs and school. And frighteningly, that will all screech YAAAAAAAWWWKKK!! HALT! in two weeks. Yow. Ahikes. I'm in trouble.

So, if anybody has any really fantastic directions for me to future take, give em to me:

(for example, getting a keyboard and making music. Or, part time job ideas. Etc)

I hope all yours' Saturdays are as revelatory as mine! Chow!
*Mikie

Thursday, March 8, 2007

Spring Bliss


I was trying to post a particular picture with my last posting and it didn't come out, so here goes another attempt. By the way Nettie is chattering away right now at all the birdies as she sits on the round table by the window and gazes at them with longing...Isn't this picture just the cutest. What a lovely dream of a Spring day...Spring is not far off you know, and this Saturday we Spring Ahead an hour to add another hour of beautiful sunlight to our day. This year we will add little Orion to our sandbox bliss. Love you all, Mom - Nana

Rainy nights and Sunny mornings

I have a cute little squirrel who loves to come to my front porch and nibble up all the bird seed I leave out. I have a regular menagerie on my front porch. Every morning when the sun comes up I can hear the brilliant birdsong and open the curtains to a flutter of all types of birds from finches to scrubjays. There are also the LBJ's or Little Brown Jobs as Suzanne calls them. They are little fat round birds with striped heads and wings that are so cute. They are ground birds who peck up the seed on the porch railing (when the squirrel isn't there) and porch floor and out by the tree where I have placed a pie dish of water for them to bathe in. What a way to start the day. Now that the sun is up early it is alot easier to get going in the morning without that slow dark dragging down of sadness. This little house is cute and when the sunshine is flowing in it is bright and cheery. I just need some darling little grandchildren running about inside to make it sing.

Tomorrow we will go to Santa Cruz to see Mikie in his plays. I am looking forward to a day of driving, bookstore browsing, Mexican food eating, Bunny shop sleuthing, beachfront strolling, water bright gazing, and laughing out loud at the wonderfully creative, bright costumy, eye-rolling silliness of Mikie's new comedys.

Have a lovely, bright, sunshiny Thursday all my precious ones. Never fail to smile at others, say Hi to everyone you meet and bring a ray of sunshine into anyone you see or meet. You never know what is going on in there life and how that one bright ray may change their life.

Love, you know who

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Lame-o's!

Nobody ever posts anymore! Except Heather, who argued this same point!!! Come on you guys, git your lazy acts together and post something whydontchall?! Or I may be forced to post yet another recount of one of my adventurous days!! (which would be fun to do)

So post something, anything - nobody's judging. Matt, let's have a posty or two about Zelda.

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

The Bald David



For those of you who can't be there, here's a little taste of what's in store.
And some lines:

"Cat's lick and pot's luck"
"Whiskey soda, Mona?"
"So priapic!"
"Doesn't the sign say Butcher?"
"The bullets seem to have ventilated but not violated my ventricles"
"let's go and slap Ulysses!"
"Oh dear, I seem to have been shot"

See y'all this weekend!
-Mikie

Elkhorn Slough


Wouldn't it be awesome if the whole fam went? I found this pic on the El Dorado Center Website for Mr. Denega's class. Heather it was so beautiful we should do it again! Check out the courses here for this year still. I love ya all.

hello moon





I woke up this morning around 8 and couldn't fall back asleep. So I sat up in bed and pulled open the window to let in some of that morning fresh beach that softly knocks all night long. Then I crawled my massiveness off the mattress and toddled down my stairs to the front door. I was getting my laundry out of the car, but for some reason I just stood there outside the door in the morning sun for a few minutes, soaking it all up like a crusty sponge. Alex frolics out the door behind me, slinky and spry, "Yeeeah Mike-Man" he hollars, tosses down his skateboard and zwinged around the corner. So I go inside and take my shower. An hour later I'm down into the little slow city, standing in a Starbucks, wishing the counter girl didn't know me by name. (this is a day, by the way) When I get up to campus there isn't a parking spot to be had in all of the West and North remotes, so I swing my wagon down into the East lot (miles from my noontime destination) and prepare for yet another morning jaunt. This was 11 already, and the fresh hilly air smiled at how good I felt.
When I crested over that path that overlooks the bay, I stopped to suck it up with insatiable awe. Dangit, it looks so good. There's so little clouds masking the bay this morning, so I can just watch it all shimmer. I took a moment to pinpoint exactly where my house was, just off the wharf a good 5 miles away, little pricks of color against a huge vast greyness of gleaming ocean light.
I got to the bookstore, and my book wasn't there. So off again I was, alone with my shifting backpack talking to me with every step. I love that thing, it clings to my shoulders like a suckling pet, and I show it some good ol times. Through the trees I walked, looking up and up - trees are funny because you can never see the tops. I eventually got to the cafe tp eat hardboiled eggs and toast and yoghurt, then back to Theatre Arts for our Shakes-to-Go runthrough for Paul Whitworth. It went splendidly, and I am in glee. Afterwards I set off again, back down through the southward campus meadows to get back to my car so I can move it closer. It was midafternoon now, and on this path the air is always warm and promising. I tried to call Dad a couple times to tell him about it, and finally my phone cuts through to his voicemail. He gets a dollup of my enthusiasm, and then it's back to me eyeing at a brisk stroll with arms a-trucking and head up. I jackrabbit dashes off the path in front of me, but stops close enough so I can get a good look. I decided he wasn't scared of me, so I proved him right and kept on strolling. Further down the rolling meadows I see squirrels popping in and out of their holes, little spurts of movements all around me. I thought for a second how interesting their lives must be, and how huge and endless these meadows seem to them. The tall grey grasses are their forests, and we the Wild Beasts who walk by on our path. I was really cuttin' along as I turned down and headed through the Village buildings. Hillary hates the Village, but I loved living there. In my experience, these little portable buildings of various colors are some of the most mature quarters to stay in the whole city of Santa Cruz. The people are respectable and clean, and everybody is happy to me. Well since I'm not living there now, I just walked on through and made up my way up the stairs of Mordor recently built into the Village's backside. This steep wall-well of steps takes up quickly up to the road and over again to East remote parking lot. And there I was, full-circled, with barely half the day over.
After an hour of class, I come out to my 20-minute spot to discover a funny yellow ticket sticking out from under my windshield wiper. Silly TAPS office, some terrorist organisation will murder them all someday, and good riddance too I say. SO I reward my irresponsibity with a good old dinner from Mikie's Del Taco In Santa Cruz, AKA, Planet Fresh Burritos. Mmm I'll miss that place.
After a fine evening chat with Dad, the vanilla sky called me back to the big brown Barn at the entrance to campus where I'd spend the next 5 1/2 hours of my night wearing a variety of colors, dorning various accents, wearing glasses, making people laugh, speaking someone else words, being physical and ending a long night. It was our first dress-rehearsal runthrough for our play, and a grueling one at that. But now it's done, I'm finally home, belly full of tofu and beans and stuff, and still trying to think of something interesting to respond to Heather with about an update to my life.

Oh, and the white moon glitters through my bamboo blinds at me, sliced up between the slits but happy white all the same. Hello moon.

Monday, March 5, 2007

daffodillyo




hi guys, okay, no one is posting and it's MAKING ME REALLY MAD!!! where are you all? too busy to let your poor old family know what's going on??!! mikie, i do appreciate the last post, but where's the update, where's your new outlook, where's the choices, the ideas, the excitement, the energy? matt and amy, we need more stories!!! we need tiny seemingly mundane details about your life with the kids in provo because we miss you desparately and we hunger over these details like tiny finches pecking seeds! momma, where are you sentimental journeys and addie where are your rhapsodies? dad, where are your dreamy speculations and joey where is your sarcasm and creativity and enthusiasm? darin and art, where are you, period?


as for myself, i am here, checking in every day and not wanting to be the only lame-o writing. especially since here is the extent of my information: i worked at mel's yesterday. it was a long day and pretty busy. i worked until 9:30 at night. then i dreamt about mel's all night, nightmarish sagas that consisted of me frantically and ineffectually waiting on tables...then i returned to mel's at 5:30 in the morning and the whole nightmarish scene begins again but in reality!


no - it's not that bad. i make money and there are quiet moments and i get free diet coke and i read the paper and i talk to crazy people like don-the-drunk-who-is-no-longer-a-drunk. and my friend from work who was due two days before amy HAD HER BABY EARLY, on the 3rd of march! his name is graydyn and he was six pounds twelve ounces and she is tiny but very brave and did a really good job pushing him out, or so i hear.


darin and i are cleaning up our yard in preparation for leaving on our road trip and then coming back and getting married in the backyard. we have lots and lots to do in the next two weeks to get ready, and luckily we are feeling feisty and lively and energetic on these warm march days with unexpected daffodils popping up and frogs singing in the ponds!